Depressing!

Well, I am sitting here tonight, by myself. Aaron is playing softball with the church team, Eli and Lucy are finally in bed and Lily is here laying on my chest sleeping. I was just thinking to myself that it is so wonderful to have this sweet little baby laying here with me. I had a rough day today for my self esteem. Mom and I headed out to Kohls this afternoon to look for some clothes that I could get to wear to school when I head back in a few weeks. I looked and looked, picked a few things out and couldn't find one single thing that would fit me! It was definitely a depressing moment for the week. I think the hardest part about it, is that I have to go back to work and look somewhat presentable. I can't go to work in my three pairs of sweatpants and pajama pants that I rotate through the week! I just needed to vent this evening. For someone who has become accustomed to wearing maternity clothes for the last 3 and 1/2 years, I am just struggling a little bit. Oh well, maybe I can loose 13 more pounds in the next 2 and 1/2 weeks! I seriously doubt it though!